If I Was There For You

It shouldn’t be my job to call  / so you’ll never hear from me at all / and it’s not that hard to write a note / a postcard sent to say hello.

I guess I’ll have to wait another day / see if you change your mind, come out to play / I haven’t seen you in a year so don’t be late / all I know is that’d better be worth the wait.

Show me your smile, it’s been a while / I need to remember what it’s like to be in love / I know that it’s true, you might want me if I was there for you.

Say hello to your folks from me / see I’m sure I’m remembered distantly / and tell me what’s your boyfriend’s name / are you really sure that he’s not gay?

I guess it’s true, it’s funny what they say / not funny ha-ha, but slightly funny strange / I said I’d be famous, isn’t that good enough for you / so much bitterness, it comes from loving you.

Keep in touch means different now / call every week, every month until it peters out / still I made it on your Christmas list / seems we’ll never see the end of this.

I guess it’s ironic in that Alanis Morrissette kind of way / I lost you, but it all seems like a cliche / I’ve never asked, do you ever think of me at all / you’ve got my number, it’s not that hard to call.

Unloving You

I go quiet when I see you / suddenly I’m half asleep / so may things that can go wrong / when I speak, I am weak.

I’m placid but I like the strong girls / so when I’m frightened you can hold me too / I don’t like it when you try to lift me / I’ll carry myself.

I don’t like to make decisions / if they fail I’m to blame / so don’t ask me to choose between you / and your friends ’cause I know you’ll win.

I’m shy but I like the fun girls / so when it’s quiet you can draw the heat / I don’t like it when you seek attention / from people that aren’t me.

It’s so clear that I could fall in love with you / I don’t bite so it’s okay to follow suit / I’m too dumb so if you can’t then tell me soon / give me one day and I can start unloving you.

Boy seeks girl for some romance / aged 19 to 23 / non smoking social drinking Libran / likes to sleep, likes to eat.

I’m tall but I like the short girls / so when we lie everything’s just in reach / but it’s so far when you stand beside me / so let’s sit down instead.

Shoes and Gloves

I like what you’ve done with this place while it goes to waste / see the books on the side, they give the floorboards a great place to hide / as I stand over here I’m surrounded by what seems to be old matchsticks and glue / I watch them spell out words / I watch them write the absurd.

I’ll ask you when you’re ready to leave / I’ll ask you if you’ll help me to breathe / take it in and out.

I want to feel what it’s like to be kicked, to be stroked, to be licked / I’ll even let you wear your shoes and some gloves / you whisper cold threats in my ear / your warm breath will help me to block out the fear / if you visit we can both stay up late / ’til the sun pokes through gaps in the walls.

And I’ll let you wear your shoes and gloves.

Serious

You don’t think that I need you / but you just couldn’t be more wrong if you / tried to teach me, ever so neatly / just how to stop my hear from feeling tired.

I get so serious sometimes but…

Look for moments where I’ve grown and / you’ll see that I’ve changed more than you / seem to notice I’ve been so heartless / but it’s only been that way for a while / I smiled when I looked at you / but it’s been the worst mistake of my short life.

You don’t know how it feels to be loved / but never by you, it’s true.

You don’t know how it feels.